AlMaghrib Withdrawal.

18 Nov

So, I am officially in Al-Maghrib withdrawal. I walked into class on Monday, sat down, and had to refrain from busting out in tears like, three times. This past weekend I felt like I was bit by the radioactive spider, placed by the sorting hat into Gryffindor, told that I must destroy the One Ring in the fires of Mordor, and took the red pill. All wrapped up in one unwieldy package.

I thought I heard the Adhaan, but it was just a voice. I thought I saw Arabic writing on a bulletin, but it was just my imagination.

I was feeling so lonely, but I kept thinking, I’m not the only one who ever felt like this. It’s like I’ve been searching in vain for my best friend but they’ve been standing right there the whole time.

Learning about the life of Rasulullah, salalahu alaiyhi wa salam, has opened up my mind and softened my heart. I know the Quran is a miracle, but this is the first time I’ve ever contemplated the miracle of Rasulullah’s life. There is a lesson for all of us, no matter what we have gone through.

“He came at the right time,” my mom told me today. She was talking about Shaykh AbdulBary Yahya. “People really needed to hear this. They’re afraid, uncertain. They don’t know what’s going to happen.”

So there I am, listening to my professor talk about expanding the production possibilities frontier, and long-run aggregate supply and short-run aggregate demand, and on and on and on about shaping and reshaping the piling up the good things of this world. It was so surreal. I looked around and all I could think was, I want to go home. I wanted to be back with my brothers and sisters in that auditorium, learning about the Prophet, peace be upon Him, because it felt REAL. It felt like a taste of what life should be like.

Insha Allah, this feeling won’t fade, and this will just be the beginning of my journey into knowledge.

Insha Allah.

Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to forget someone you never even met.

Also, my mom would like you all to know that if you get an email from Osama Bin Laden, it’s a virus. Kthx.


7 Responses to “AlMaghrib Withdrawal.”

  1. ladyinsight November 18, 2009 at 10:33 pm #

    Your mom is so cute mashAllah. I agree with you the Seerah is essential for every Muslim to really understand and appreciate the gift of Islam.

    I also enjoyed hanging out with you. I see the makings of a great friendship inshAllah, especially since I’ll be moving there next year 😉

    Love ya sis,

    • runningmuslimah November 19, 2009 at 4:48 pm #

      hehe thanks 🙂

      yeah, it’s like i knew it was important, but now i’m realizing precisely WHY and HOW. when we know what Rasulullah (saw) went through, we better appreciate it more. It’s a pattern that repeats with any great movement, be it Islam, the struggle for civil rights in our country today, etc.

      and yaaaay how exciting! you’ll be an orlando-ian!

      • Macena March 7, 2010 at 4:31 am #

        Assalamu ‘alaykum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuhu.

        Insha-Allah this message recieves you in good health!

        Jazakallahukayran for posting your notes for the Sheppard’s Path! But where are the notes from the 2nd weekend of the course! Your notes just end with “IA Next week: The pledge of allegiance, hijra to medina.”

        Um, either I can’t find it or you haven’t uploaded it.

        If you haven’t uploaded it yet, please Insha-Allah do so soon!!!


  2. Yusra November 19, 2009 at 2:36 pm #

    WOW Mashallah I feel the same exact way. Like you said when you have a better understanding of what Prophet Muhammad did and went through. You feel this love deep within that you can’t even explain. So beautiful that I cry sometimes. Subhanallah Inshallah all Muslims will gain this love as well.

    I love your entries! Keeps me thinking and I love you for that 🙂

    • runningmuslimah November 19, 2009 at 4:11 pm #

      ameen, insha Allah. thank you for your kind words. 🙂

  3. yogurt November 19, 2009 at 3:10 pm #

    Salam Alaikum

    Was this your first Almaghrib course? They are so addictive…I love them. I know the withdrawal feeling you’re talking about and how when you go back to school it’s like ugh..I want to be back in that scholarly spiritually charged atmosphere..

    p.s. awesome video loved it.

    • runningmuslimah November 19, 2009 at 4:09 pm #

      No, this was technically my second but my first one was almost 5 years ago, so quite a bit of time had elapsed since i had the almaghrib experience.

      yes, that is exactly how it feels!

      i’m glad you liked the vid.

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